If I thought that 2014 was a hard year, then 2015 was even harder for me and I never want to relive this year ever again.
I turned 30 this year and with being 30, I did learn some things about myself. I also began to change into a person I think I will be for decades to come. I mellowed out. I began to establish my values and I also branded myself as a valuable person. In branding myself that way, I also began to believe that I am a valuable person that would be in demand anywhere and in any way. I also started to think about the future and made some big decisions that will slowly come together in the years to come.
On the negative side, I’ve “ghosted” on a few people and dropped them out of my life with only a bit of a second guess. I stopped having time for people who did not take my feelings into consideration and people who always complained without making a change. I stopped trying to impress people. I stopped trying to fit in and support things and people who made me second guess myself. My heart has hardened just a touch. I also stopped caring about opinions that don’t matter to me anymore or never mattered to me in the first place.
To that end, I do have really wonderful friends that I have kept and I appreciate them so much. I met some really wonderful people this year and the friends that I’ve had for years are still my heart. I also continued to keep in touch with my best work friends from my old job (which I will bring up later).
I tried attending college at my dream school three times this year. Three times. The first two times were a bust. The last time provided me with the best time I’ve ever had in college. I was able to have a semi-full college experience in one semester. I had two wonderful classes with wonderful teachers. School had finally become a place that I attending. It was so amazing.
I donated blood for the first time. I felt like I was dying for about a week after, but I finally donated blood. I thought that this was fair because I donated Tym’s eyes, skin, tissue and brain. His brain went to science. His eyes went on to help three people see. So, I gave blood and I think it went to Texas to help save a life.
I thought I would go through a spending freeze this year, but it didn’t happen. I managed to get rid of all the money I received from Tym’s death and sometimes, the thought of shopping and/or spending have well and truly exhausted me. I was exhausted before Tym died, but I just don’t even want to think about spending anymore unless I absolutely have to. I did have some great time with the money. I spent four nights in a wonderful hotel, which is where I ushered in 30. I gave some nice birthday gifts. I had some fun, but I now know that having an exorbitant amount of money is more exhausting to me than exciting. For 2016, I only have four to five big purchases I really want.
I lost my beautiful job in June. I spent almost three months on medical leave and that led to me getting fired. I continued to stay unemployed until the end of November, which is when I got two jobs. I had to quit one job before it even started and I quit the other one last Sunday, after despising it more and more. I accepted an offer for what may be another beautiful job and started the hiring process, so I’m pretty thrilled.
This year made me work hard for my happiness but also remained unrelenting in the challenges. I am really hoping that 2016 is going to be much better. I’ll definitely play my part to make it a good year.
*I want to thank all of the people who have read and subscribed to this blog. I really appreciate the past two years. The next time you’ll see me, I’ll be at another online home. Love you, guys.